Europe - Carrie Lyrics Meaning

Wow, soul searching in the midst of a break from a long term boyfriend, googled my name specifically to find it in a song: I find „Carrie“ (spelled with one xtra „r“ than mine) and it blew me away! Written the year my world of relational hurts began. I had never hear it. It explains down to the intensity of the emotion, what I am currently going through in this relationship. I am blown away.

For me, it describes what my boyfriend of almost 4 years is saying to me through this „temporary“ break.

He has let go of his original promise that “He needed me. He found me. He‘s Keeping me. That he loves me“ said in a my ear first and then in a card.

He can’t stop loving me. But he feels what we were to be was destroyed. (No cheating. Just the destructive interference of his ex-wife…that ultimately came between us.) He is begging ….by an abrupt shift in communication (he stopped reaching out daily during this “temporary“ break that we agreed to and he is hoping I will let it be a permanent one for now and maybe forever…

In my heart and soul I feel he has let go and doesn’t want this or just doesn’t have the energy to fight through the opposition.

It’s ripping me apart because I wasn’t looking for him. It just happened and he sought me.

Until, his ex (who left him) starts using how well he treats me to lay massive unimaginable guilt trips on him…victimizing him. playing on the love he thought he was in when she suddenly ripped apart his world…. there was someone new foe her.)

After 3 years soul searching, he finds me, I say yes. I was his first step forward…his realization that his former “ship had sailed“

And bit by bit. Her poison sets in. we break up. get back together. Me. Him. Me. Him. Him. Him.

We lost that chance. He knows it. I know. It.

But I am not ready to let go. Yet he‘s begging me to, knowing I have the power to reel
him in, is begging me to just let it go

“He reads my mind with no intentions“ He sees me, knows me, knows what I need, knows how he never stopped feeling the love and devotion to her, knows she doesn’t have that for him…..

He does not know what will change and when if it ever does, but he knows our lives and our desires (all 3) are in constant internal conflict. And it’s just too intense. Too much.

„We been through this before“ sees no reason for my tears…because he knows how I hurt because I know his feelings for her…just that emotional tie that causes me to feel cheated…

And him to feel pulled apart…

He knows I know. He knows I understand what he‘s asking. Without words I know. And he knows, through it all I still want him. I‘d endure the pain. But he‘s refusing to let me hurt.

So, he is putting his foot down…firmly yet gently at the same time. Holding my hand…my fingertips…until I am strong enough to release my grip. And yet I feel his soul…our souls…the love against our wills …..still reaching for each other….

knowing we have to let go.

Neither wants to admit it‘s forever, but we both know we will fill the pain with others..

So he takes the lead and is silently begging I give way to what must be…

The final goodbye. ….

We are both in the same field. He in the height of his and climbing. Me pressing to get to the height of mine.

And in the height mine, just a few years off, our “Maybe we‘ll meet again“ is an absolute. But will we “meet“? or will our lives be entangled with others and yet when we meet again…. there’s this knowing that our hearts and our bodies will still be aching for each other…

and then what?

“Carrie“ seems written for “Carie“. Not one lyric out of place….

This….could….be our last goodbye…. Oh ohhhh. Carie Carie

He begs …. please just let me go…. to resolve myself to reality, that I failed, again. Myself. You.

Let him free with the notion of again….believe the lie that allows him to let go. The lie of an Again.

Maybe he wants the again and knows tho if he doesn’t let go we will destroy that possibility…

The song is….Us! Unimaginably sad and painful and yet astoundingly beautiful. A masterpiece! Wow!