Smashing Pumpkins - Beautiful Lyrics Meaning

This song means so much to me... i dedicate this song to someone i really in love without tellig him my true feelings towards him.i never can express how i felt for him because i wasnt sure whether he would feel the same.. but somehow i think he must have some feeling with me but we both r confused and didnt want to have false hope from each other.. the song just shows how much someone adore with someone who was very close but yet so far.. and wanting someone so badly but seems like there was an unknown obtacle around... and now after 23 years.. we met again and now only we knew each others feelings.. but its all too late.