Blue October - Worry List Lyrics Meaning

Sounds like it was written after some deep self-reflection. When you get to that point, your life is full of regret. It’s hard to live with the butterfly effect you create when people that love you, watch you burn it all down. If you survive, you will realize the little things you did were life changing for people close to you. That’s a hard thing to live with. It took me a long time to see how the things I did affected others. I left everything to fate, that’s what you do when you hate yourself, you open the door to things that can and will kill you, you would literary bleed out if it stopped the pain you caused. I feel like the song is simple for some to understand, they lived it, even when you stop the drugs/alcohol the damage is there, and you know you’ve no one to blame. In the line where he said he never walked away, I feel like he wants his daughter and ex to know that he didn’t stop loving them, they were always with him, he just couldn’t be with them, when you are addicted you are poison to the ones you love, no matter how hard you try, you break their hearts because the person you were once is dying right in front of them.