Slipknot - Metabolic Lyrics Meaning

To support what I said above I will capitalize the parts that seem to hint at this meaning this.

Gone - I couldn't murder your promise
Right before my eyes
THE REVOLUTIONS OF MY PSYCHOSIS
KEPT ME OUTTA' THE WAY
Once - inside - all I hold is ash...

Fail - suppressing every feeling
I'm in so much pain
I HASVE EVERY RIGHT TO HATE YOU -
I CAN'T TAKE IT!

THE HARDEST PART WAS KNOW - I COULD NEVER BE YOU
NOW ALL I DO IS SIT AROUND AND WISH I COULD FORGET YOU

My demise - I took a life worth living and
Made it worth a mockery
I deny - I fold, but they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me

WHO ARE YOU TO ME? WHO AM I TO YOU?
IS THIS A LESSON IN NEPOTISTIC NEGLIGENCE!?
BY DEFAULT YOU WERE MY ONLY LINK TO THE OUTSIDE
PSYCHOSOMATIC SUICIDE!
WHERE WERE WHEN I WAS DOWN?
CAN YOU SHOW ME A WAY -
TO FACE EVERYDAY WITH THIS FACE - GOODBYE

My demise - I took a life worth living and
Made it worth a mockery
I deny - I fold, but they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me

When I blur my eyes, they make the whole
World breath - I SEE YOU FUCKING ME
ABD I ANM ABSOLUTELY - CONTROLLING EVERY URGE TO MUTILATE
THE ONE AND ONLY ANSWER
SO MUCH FOR MEMORIES
I WANNA' DRESS IN YOUR INSECURITIES
AND BE THE PERFECT YOU - I'M THROUGH
I'm out-stretched out for all to loathe
Here we go - the ultimate irony